AI AI AI,INCENDIO!!!!

  They say we find fireworks when we fall in love. Hell, these incediaries don't just come when you're on the "up time".
   My other kind of fireworks came unknowingly no matter how I strangely craved for it to come. These fireworks may be my closure, my painful bombastic closure which required a really "que dolor" kind of flashback.
   Funny how it felt like having a blast to the bast through an inhumane kick in the butt. All the memories I chose to bury in the deep and dark crevices of my brain all seem to come thundering up and out and whirled around in black dust for a moment before it zapped like gone. I have waited so much for this closure yet I never realized that this is how it felt when the time finally came.
   The moment was painful. Painful  yet empowering. Yet the amazing thing that helped me through the ordeal was thinking of people I find my bit of solace in really "elektra ala cuckoo" times.
     The words were painful, and as the acid tears stung my eyes and cheeks, I just imagined myself crying in my mom's lap ( though I never tried so) and  in another scene, that I was hugging my sane and shrink friend Lea. The scene were buffers... and I felt better...( Heps, I would never imagine hugging my child in this. the moment was just  to thick with adult pessimism!!!)
    I guess The Man Up There really moves in mysterious ways. He knows when and how to keep you from losing yourself when He sees you starting to drown in your own self-imposed misery. You find yourself on the down low after a fight and the next thing you know, a good friend texts you up for a killer coffee, or some thought about a friend consoling you pops up. For every action is an opposite reaction, and the next thing you know, order in the universe as you know it , is now restored.